I haven't updated livejournal in years. I look back.. so many things have changed. I've lived in Hammond for the past two years..just moved back to New Orleans. I miss my apartment :/ but I love this freaking city. I start work soon, full time,baby! Ready to make money. Ready to move out. I just got back from Grand Isle with Chere, Oser and Keegan. Man, this world is a beautiful place..I'm ready to go back to the Smokies. I love you all.

People are so damn immature. Seriously. I hate being involved in stupid drama, and going to Chapelle- I just can't seem to get away from it. It's never worth worrying over. You're not going to even see that person anymore when you graduate. It's a waste of breath, a waste of time. I wish everyone would just get along. No, not even get along, just leave all the drama to themselves. Deal with it your own way instead of getting unwanted people into your business.
I can't stand the opinions of my mother, i've finally realized why I dread having conversations with her. I mean, sure, I love her, she's my mother. She does alot for me and I appreciate it. But when it comes to things like, my friends, college, school, the things I do.. it's like we can never, ever agree on anything. Close-minded is her way of thinking, complete opposite of me. She says the worst things at the worst times, and it's almost as though she ENJOYS making me yell. I try not to yell. I try to keep my composure. I'll be out of the house soon enough. I can make it. I tell her all the time how i hate the fact that she is so judgemental toward people that she doesn't even know. One thing will set her off raving about people with tatoos, piercings, hairstyles, clothes. Personality is nothing. Surface is everything. You must make the family look good. Piercings... on your face? I'm crazy for even thinking that while I'm still at the house, she says. To be honest, I think if I got anything dramatic done, she wouldn't tell me anything. She'd probably ask me to take it out, wash it off, change my ways. But that's about it. For instance, she thought my sublime poster represented the devil and asked me to take it down. I didn't, but she just let's it go. I respect her for that, but I just can't STAND the judgements she makes, her way of thinking. Maybe i'm contradicting myself. I'm just venting, so I wouldn't be surprised if I was talking like a hypocrite.


I'm confused. Badly. jdfdlksfj.
If only I could tell you half the shit I'm thinking.
But I'd rather not take the chances.





"It wasn't a question of survival at all. It was the fullness of it. How much you could hold, how much you could care."





OHH, controversy.

I miss last year, and the summer. Fjflkdajflk. This year is getting better, I think. Last weekend really was good. Friday= Katies with Jessie, Casey, Brandi, Michelle. We all crammed in the car, smoked some cloves. Somehow i managed to cut my foot open, but it's okay, really. I don't need stitches! Haha, NEVER! Sushi either wednesday or thursday with all those girls. I love them. I also hung out with Jessie [aris] on saturday, it's been quite a while since it's been just us two, in the car, talking and enjoying the night. I missed it, I missed our talks & the way we understand each other. Good times. I'm so over schooool. I can't wait to graduate, but I really don't want to leave New Orleans. It sucks that the only way I'll get an apartment/my parents will support me is if I move out of the city. Or else they'd make me live at home. I thought about getting emancipated, since I'll be 17 when I graduate, turning 18 in July. I don't know. I was thinking Baton Rouge. Maybe so.


"I wanted to tell her not to entertain despair like this. Despair wasn't a guest, you didn't play it's favorite music, find it a comfortable chair. Despair was the enemy."
-White Oleander; Janet Fitch

i deleted my last entry mainly because i really don't feel the need to look back. on the accident. on the bad times. only the good times. this past summer was byfar the best. i met some really great people, i've gotten close to those i never thought i would. awesome memories. thanks, everyone.

Friends only.




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i'm off till saturday. sa-weet =]
idk, i don't really care, i like my job. the people are really fun, so that's cool.
i get to see michael buble' sunday. yay!
i think i'm going to the show at the high ground tomorrow, to see Action Action. maybe.
my birthday is so soon, i'm excited !!!
weee.
this is a retarded entry. yes, go me.

well, lets see..
i work alot. idk why i keep saying that, because i really don't work that much, i just worked everyday but tuesday this past week.
i've been taking alot of polaroids and hanging out with some really cool people.
examples: adrianne, jessie, darren, bethanie, mike, bay, greg. maybe dom if he'd pick up his phone, dangit.
anyway, tonight is fourth of july, and i didn't shoot any fireworks.
but i did catch a glimpse of some while bringing darren home.
the ride was really chill, man i love me some modest mouse.
gas is such a bitch!
ugh, just thought i'd let you know that. i had to refill my tank twice today, blah! okay it wasn't a full tank either time, but whatever.


i'm really happy now. with my friends, life, situations, everything. not to jinx myself (knock on wood)
my birthday is on the 21st. so get me something realllyyy good.
and adrianne's is on the 22nd, so get her something good but not as good as mine.
i feel like watching movies. i think i'm going to see the devil wears prada tomorrow.
go meee.
<3

d00d. i was just reading through my entries, at how depressive i've been in the past week.
wooow, shoot me.
seriously.
that's SO not like me.
blah! i apologize.



anyway, i'm going to bed. goodnight.